Umm..hello?

Is anyone even there? I kind of slacked off a little on blogging and then always felt too overwhelmed to try to go back and start again. But, I just decided that I have to just jump in and start somewhere or else I will never blog again! So many things have happened since the last time that I blogged. I need to write about my trip home for two great friends wedding, summer school and camp, my trip to the Philippines and China (oh, the stories..), my vacation spent swimming with wild dolphins, Field Day, my decision to not stay in Japan another year, Kids's and Parents' Day, and the list goes on...

Maybe I will go back and try to fill you in on some of those things slowly. It might be a bit much to try to fit in 5 months or so worth of stuff into one post. :)

So, for now I will just tell you that we are in full Christmas mode here. We are teaching the kids several Christmas songs as well as a dance they will perform for their parents. I spend a lot of my time breaking my "no Christmas music until after Thanksgiving" rule. However, Christmas songs seem to be a little comforting since I know that I will be home for Christmas very soon! I can't even tell you how much I am anticipating that trip. I have been a little homesick recently to say the least. I miss my family, and my friends. I miss church.

Well, if you read carefully, you would have read that I decided to not stay in Japan next year. It was a hard but very easy decision. I love the kids and it's a great job, but I just feel like it's time to be somewhere else doing something different. What is that something, you ask? Um, well..get in line because I am currently asking that same question. I have absolutely no idea what I will do next. I will be here in Japan until just about the end of March, then I am planning to travel a little, and then go home sometime in April. I will be going home to babies, babies, babies! I think I love being an Aunt more than anything in this world.

I'm trying my best to trust God with what comes next. It's scary, and overwhelming. I do know that I want to do something that makes a difference in the lives of others. I do know that I want to travel. I do know that I want to work with kids in some capacity. However, that's about all I currently know. :)

A friend posted a song tonight and I felt like it was coming straight from my own heart. So, I'll leave you with the lyrics. If you are a praying person, remember me sometimes. I have some big life-changing decisions to make in the very near future. I want to be exactly where I am supposed to be, and I want to feel confident doing it.

Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me

By: Josh Wilson